Hey Renee,
One of the biggest things I regret in this game is how I acted in my relationship with you. I am sorry for acting the way I did. I felt absolutely terrible after I voted for you after the switch. I think it was just really bad luck that the tribes ended up how they did, and how the idols started getting played, and my own paranoia. I wish I had acted differently.
If I may explain... in the first two episodes, most of us talked to each other on AIM. We had group chats on AIM where everyone was talking about the challenges and such. Just from my experience, the games I've played people talk on AIM. I have never played a game where people talked on Skype, so I guess I was just waiting for you to come on AIM? I guess I wasn't thinking about Skype unfortunately. =/ I think that was just an unlucky thing where we didn't see each other very early on. I did go onto skype after that first vote we had to come talk to you. I think we got off to a bad start there.
But once I started talking to you I really, really enjoyed our chats. They were quite long, and they were totally genuine. The more I started to talk to you, the more I was like,
man, I like talking to Renee, this is a woman I want to work with. I think Hash had the same thoughts I did.
Then the unfortunate thing happened when we were split into tribes. =/ I guess I was looking at it like this. At the end of it all, it was unfortunately going to be me, you, or Hash who was being voted out. Otherwise, we would have had to guess what two people we had just met would each vote for. Then gamble our two idols on that uncertain possibility. We could have played two idols and still have had one of us be voted out. =(
I thought Hash was going to use his idol on himself. He did not tell me of any plans to use it on you. If Hash used his idol on himself, and Adrian and Ryan used their idols like you thought they would, that means it would be me versus you.
I wanted to save my idol for later. It turns out I desperately needed my idol at the very next vote, or I would have definitely lost this game lol. So I think that was a good decision.
But because it was me versus you at this vote, I thought, that meant I had to vote for you. =/
I actually thought you realized this yourself, and were going to vote for me. I thought this because our group of four, in our Skype chat, did not come up with a plan for how to use our four votes. I actually kept pressing us to come up with a plan on how to split our votes 2-2, just in case Adrian or Ryan didn't use their idol. I thought this was a good plan.
[11/24/2012 2:57:26 PM] Renee Morrissey: Please don't vote for Quanz. We can't split our vote. If we do and Quanz DOESN'T play his idol, he would be the one going home and we would be screwed.
[11/24/2012 2:58:35 PM] Sam Burkett: wouldn't quanz going home be a big victory though?
[11/24/2012 2:58:51 PM] Sam Burkett: right now they are both using their idols and unless we magically guess who they are voting, one of us goes home =(
[11/24/2012 2:59:25 PM] Renee Morrissey: No, not really. He only has one idol and he's not nearly as good at challenges as Adrian is. If we don't get Adrian out now, we won't have the opportunity again to get him out before the big merge.
But our foursome was not coming up with a plan. In fact the whole day of the vote, no one talked in the group chat about our plan. We only talked about it a little the night before which I wasn't around much for. Secondly, and this might just be my paranoia, but during the last two hours of the vote you couldn't get in contact with me, and I couldn't get in contact with you. Then Hash started telling me he was voting for Ryan, which went against what you said of all of us voting for Adrian. (I guess Hash was lying about voting for Ryan, but that's what he told me he would do).
So I was thinking you realized what was going on, and were making the smart choice to vote for me. That's why you weren't talking to me in private chat or in the group chat, and why we hadn't all agreed on a plan on how to use our votes.
I think I was right about you being smart... because the very next vote, you did the smart thing and fooled me haha. I did not know you were working with Mbochi when you came to our group asking us to vote for Tomas. I went along with it anyway because I thought it didn't matter that much either way, but I didn't know about your plan at that point. You did fool me that round lol, that was a good move. I think it might have worked too if the Mbochi had trusted you and thought you were with them. I'm not sure why they didn't think that, given what had just happened.
I should have talked to you after I voted for you at the switch tribal council. I think I was bit embarassed by what I did to you. It didn't feel good. I was busy at the time. At that point, Kwele had gone from a 7-5 lead to a 5-4 loss, and it looked like we would be picked off one by one. I assumed you would be doing the smart thing and going over to Mbochi, which meant it was actually 6-3. So I guess I was just lazy and feeling down so I didn't come to apologize. I should have though.
-If you had the power to picked anyone who played the game to take to the final 2, who would it have been?I would pick Tomas. That sounds like a copout lol but it's what I did and how the game played out... who am I to say it should have played out any differently?
-Why should I forgive and forget and vote for you to win?Your vote is your vote to cast, and I'm not going to tell you what you should do with it. It would be completely understandable if you felt hurt by what I did to you and did not want to vote for me to win. No one would blame you for that.
But I feel like the people of our original tribe have come so far and so long in this game, and it was such an epic battle. We had highs and lows, me, you, Hash, Chris, Kim, Jeb, and Sagar. Some of us got lucky, others got the short end of the stick. You did. That wasn't fair. But despite that, you played hard and you never gave up, even with things looked bleak.
But I feel that after you left, I was trying to do the same things you had done Renee, as you fought tooth and nail against all odds. My odds were equally as bleak against a united, fearsome Mbochi fivesome. It looked like I had no hope. My allies kept getting voted out one by one. I kept surviving round by round.
You developed an amazing relationship with Hash who became your ally and worked with you. You tried to form one with Mbochi, which would have been to their advantage too. Using this fighting spirit I think we both had, who knows how far you would have gotten in the game if they had believed you? Maybe I would be the one voting for you to win if that happened lol.
-Most importantly, why did you choose Tomas to take to the final 2 instead of Joe?I voted out Joe because I felt this game was all about intelligent plays, strategic players, and smart choices. Almost each and every round, people put intelligence above emotions and made the right decision to get themselves farther. People worked tirelessly episode after episode to ensure their place in the game and work to get themselves farther. Joe did all these things. I feel I did them as well. I thought that, in the end of it all, people would vote who played the smartest game and put emotions aside. Because of that, I thought I had a better shot against Tomas. Rather than Joe, who I thought would win.
Thanks for your questions, Renee.